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`iRained @ 12:59 PM

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Thursday, July 19, 2007

Letter to a Friend

Dear Naeva,

I'm so sorry that I haven't talked to you in... well... months.

You see, towards the end of my pregnancy I was having a lot of complications, the doctor told me that it was because of my size, I'm very small. I landed on Antonio's, I don't know if you know him, he's a part of The Party, and Tristen lives with him (They really do need to get married.), doorstep. He was kind enough to let me stay at his house.

I went into labor there, I don't remember a lot of it. I threw some vases and I think I broke an ashtray, and said a lot of things I didn't mean to poor Tristen, though when I apologized later he told me he knew that I didn't mean it, that I was just in pain. He's so nice... Sometimes I wish he liked girls...

I had a baby boy, he's so tiny, and he's absolutely precious. We named him Natsu Carroway. I love him, so much.

I feel so guilty though, for the first few months I wasn't able to do anything or go anywhere. I don't remember a lot of it, I was really sick, and really hurt for a long time. The birth was really hard on me, and I worried Tristen so much. But I'm better now. I get tired easily, but I'm better, and I'm able to take care of my family like I should.

My family. How weird is that? I have a family. Hehe.

How are things going with you and Ari? Everything alright? I keep hearing about all this stuff that happened while I was away, things that happened with Kairi, horrible about her hitting her head like that... Things about the children... Is Zillah really losing his mind? And I hear Rena is missing too. It's all so weird, so dramatic.

Anyways, I should tend to Natsu, he's getting into things he shouldn't. They grow up so fast.

Write me back!

Lots of love,

Retsu

`iRained @ 10:09 PM

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Monday, May 28, 2007

I talked about getting a pet chicken last night.

I don't think Nadia enjoyed that idea too much, but Joel thought the baby Cockatrice idea was cute.

I also don't understand why she got all funny when I talked about Tristen and Antonio.

Oh well.

More importantly though... I'm very sure I don't have a lot of time left.

`iRained @ 9:59 AM

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Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Scarce

I'll be more scarce than usual now, with these false labor pains driving me up the wall.

They're bad. I won't lie. I cry.

But I'll survive. I know I will.


Tristen and I narrowed the names down to two, and no matter what the baby will have his last name.

Christianna for a girl, or Natsu for a boy.

`iRained @ 1:15 AM

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Thursday, May 17, 2007

Mothers Day and Beyond...

Thank you for the mother's day note Rowane.

It made me smile. ^_^

For those of you that seem to be concerned with 'what's wrong'... I think it's pregnancy blues to be honest. That and I should really get out of this awful house. But I'm so big I can't barely move, I remember my master telling me once that when I got pregnant I'd never be able to move, and he was right. Oh was he ever right. I can hardly get up now, though I manage to get around and exercise.

I'm sure the child is a boy, he's tormenting me already.

I think I have a name that I like, I'll have to hunt Tristen down.

Besides. I want some snuggles. And pineapples. ;.;

I've also got to get my relationship priorities straight... As much as I adore you Lelly I'll have none of what's recently come about. Besides, this close to the end of it all I'm really not able to handle the stress.

I may also have found an ideal building location. And to those of you that voiced your concerns, no it isn't in the Crusades. And as much as I love Hell, especially a couple of the locations in Limbo, no it's not there either. I'd thought about Japan...

I have origins in Japan. My master told me that often when I was little...

The place frightens me though. It doesn't disgust me like Agrabah, it only frightens me. It's like those little pieces of myself that I might learn going to this place terrify me, and I tell myself over and over again that I'll just go tomorrow.

After all, without procrastinators we wouldn't have post-its.

I was looking at that Carthage area, Miss Naeva has a house boat. I've always loved the water. But it's dangerous. When the baby starts to crawl, then walk, I don't know if I could constantly have my eye on him.

I'm starting to feel sick, I think I'll go lie down. I hurt all over. ~.~

`iRained @ 1:47 AM

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Wednesday, May 9, 2007

Mistake

I wonder sometimes now if I've made a mistake.

`iRained @ 10:44 AM

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Thursday, April 26, 2007

Kicks and stuff.

I don't leave the house too often anymore. I'm so lazy. I need to get money for a new place though, for the baby.

I feel bad, I don't see Lelly very much at the moment either, when I do leave the house I'm exceptionally busy, all the time. And it's starting to wear on me, my back hurts.

I need to go and see Rena about it, see if there's something she can give me. Or Fancy was recommended to me too, I hear she delivers lots of babies.

I'm starting to REALLY be pregnant now. And I'm afraid of when the braxton hicks thingies come.

I feel so silly. I've never really had anyone tell me about these kinds of things, in all the years that I've been around...

`iRained @ 2:48 PM

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